antisocial wasted night

so i guess this is the new live journal. time to hop on this band wagon. just another place to post about depression and late night thoughts of the previous day. a place to reflect on the wasted efforts i make to try and get ahead, even though i know i won't anytime soon. i'm starting to think maybe i should just go back to school and try and do something with myself. i need to learn how to make what i want to happen, actually happen, instead of being so down on myself that i don't want to do anything but come home and watch movies, and have the occasional drunken night.